I have pre diabetes…..

I suppose this day was coming. My family and friends may read this and be very worried, but it’s considered pre-diabetes since I have yet to take the glucose test that will totally confirm it. Found out today as my OBGYN’s office called me to let me know of the results. I love Creating Harmony …they delivered both girls and have always been my goto for everything! They helped me get the required blood test I needed with a quick turn around for this program I am starting at my workplace, MINDBODY. And it couldn’t have come at a better time.

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After I found out this afternoon, I went for a very long, much needed walk. I realize this is a wake up call for me. Even with all the exercising I have been trying to be consistent with (but let’s face it Rani, not as consistent as I should be) and with all the changing eating habits (which tends to falter when I return home from work at 3pm, famished cause I didn’t eat properly during the day)….I knew this day may arrive. Especially as I experienced a hard time with clothes as of late and not feeling very attractive or healthy for the past few months. I am awake now and I am scared. I should have been scared along time ago….

I know…I know..its just pre-diabetes..not even 100% sure yet. And yes, it could be worse….but for me, right now…this is worse. This is years of cultural and gene history catching up to me…and if don’t stop it now….I see medications and a world of hurt in the future. The buck needs to stop here.

Many changes have occurred over the past few month….schedules, jobs, income…I’m sure this is part of my mid-life crisis. But I have learned to push through as that is what needs to be done. The job I currently have is now a place I enjoy to go to…and all it took was time. Time and talking it out with family and friends. They are wonderful to me and for that I am ever grateful. When people talk about MINDBODY they always say, “I’ve heard they are a great company to work for!”¬† They are 100% correct! I still will continue to pursue my first passion of massage therapy, but in order to do that, my health takes precedent.

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And now I get to participate with 44 other people in a healthy challenge call Evolve Wellness! They are going to work with me for the next three months, giving my body, mind and soul a chance to be vigorous with lifestyle change. I still can’t believe it am part of this and again, I am grateful.

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This new journey kicks off officially next week. And my goal is succeed for myself and my team. I’ll use my blog as a platform to record and discover. This is no longer only a challenge…it’s about life and living one that is full, healthy and happy. I am ready for this…I need this.

My mom told me awhile back, that she went to visit a wise man after a pilgrimage in India. She called me and said she talked to him about me. He said for me to do three things. And to keep a certain date in mind. I am doing those and see that date in my future and it’s all coming together. Without getting into the details of those three things, it’s mostly about positive ritual as a form of guidance for myself. And in true “Mom” form…there is a goal date for achievement!

So….I have placed it out here. I have typed the words from my head and heart. I have given voice to my body, mind and soul. It’s time Rani…it’s simply time.

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Find

While looking in my shed…yes just looking..because working on it would be cleaning and organizing it…and I was just looking!¬† So looking in my shed I came across many old papers and things…

This was one of them printed on parchment paper:

Rules for Being Human

1. You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it will be your for the duration.

2. You will learn lessons: you are enrolled in a full-time informal school called Life. Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lesson or think them irrelevant and stupid.

3. There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of tria-and-erro and experimentation. The “failed” experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiment that ultimately “works.”

4. A lesson is repeated until learned. A lesson will be presented  to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can then go on to the next lesson.

5. Learning lesson does not end. There is no part of life that does not contain its lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.

6. “There” is no better than “here,” you will simply obtain another “there” that will again look better than “here.”

7. Others are simply mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.

8. What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you make of them is up to you. The choice is yours.

9. Your answers lie inside you. The answers to life’s questions lie inside you. All you have to do is look, listen, and trust.

10. You will forget all this.

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Not sure where this came from. And some of it resonates for me at different times. But I like it…hope you do to! Funny what you can find when you’re really not looking for it!

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WIse words!

(AN old post brought here from scrapyoga, my old blog) With almost half the year over already, seemed like a good time to share!)

Appears in Anna Quindlen’s book: A Short Guide To A Happy Life.

I am a novelist. My work is human nature. Real life is all I know.

Don’t ever confuse the two, your life and your work.

You will walk out of here this afternoon with only one thing that no one else has. There will be hundreds of people out there with your same degree; there will be thousands of people doing what you want to do for a living. But you will be the only person alive who has sole custody of your life.

Your particular life. Your entire life. Not just your life at a desk, or your life on a bus, or in a car or at the computer. Not just the life of your mind, but the life of your heart. Not just your bank account, but your soul.

People don’t talk about soul very much anymore. It’s so much easier to craft a resume than craft a spirit. But a resume is cold comfort on a winter night, or when your sad, or broke, or lonely, or when you’ve gotten back the test results and they’re not so good.

Here is my resume:

I am a good mother to three children. I have tried never to let my profession stand in the way of being a good parent. I no longer consider myself the center of the universe. I show up. I listen. I try to laugh. I am a good friend to my husband. I have tried to make marriage vows mean what they say.

I am a good friend to my friends, and they to me. Without them there would be nothing to say to you today, because I would be a cardboard cutout. But I call them on the phone, and I meet them for lunch.

I would be rotten, or at best mediocre, at my job if these things were not true. You cannot really be first rate at your work, if your work is all you are.

So, here is what I wanted to tell you today: Get a life. A real life, not a manic pursuit of the next promotion, the bigger paycheck, the larger house. Do you think you’d care so much for those things if you blew an aneurysm one day, or found a lump in your breast?

Get a life in which you notice the smell of the salt water pushing itself on a breeze over Seaside Heights, a life in which you stop and watch how a red tailed hawk circles over the water, or the way a baby scowls with concentration when she tries to pick up a Cheerio with her thumb and first finger.

Get a life in which you are not alone. Find people you love, and who love you. And remember that love is not leisure, it is work. Pick up the phone, send an email, write a letter.

Get a life in which you are generous. And realize that life is the best thing ever, and that you have no business taking it for granted. Care so deeply about the goodness that you want to spread it around. Take money you would have spent on beers and give it to charity. Work in a soup kitchen. Be a Big Brother or Sister.

It is so easy to exist instead of to live. I learned to live many years ago. I learned to love the journey, not the destination. I learned that it is not a dress rehearsal, and that today is the only guarantee you get.

I learned to look at all the good in the world and to try to give some of it back, because I believe in it, completely and utterly. And I tried to do that in part, by telling others what I learned. By telling them this:

Consider the lilies of the field.

Look at the fuzz on a baby’s ear.

Read in the backyard with the sun on your face.

Learn to be happy.

And think of life as a terminal illness, because if you do, you will live it with joy and passion, as it ought to be lived.