With this mother’s day come many sentiments..visually, at stores, on tv and all sort of social media. And I love it! It reminds me to the amazing mama you are and always will be. I hate the fact that you are so far away, but comforted that you are in my heart and head! I am still trying to figure and work on this thing called life. And so far I think I am doing ok. Being a mom…being a parent is one of the hardest things ever! And I am coming into understanding of some of the many things you must have went through. Even more, you came to a new country without any of your family to create one of your own. You are brave, courageous, true and full of spunk and and attitude and for that I am grateful. Sorry to not call more….one day I too will wonder why my girls don’t call more…but until then know this…..I love you and am so thankful for the life you and dad gave Raj and I. Happy Mother’s day Mom!
I suppose this day was coming. My family and friends may read this and be very worried, but it’s considered pre-diabetes since I have yet to take the glucose test that will totally confirm it. Found out today as my OBGYN’s office called me to let me know of the results. I love Creating Harmony …they delivered both girls and have always been my goto for everything! They helped me get the required blood test I needed with a quick turn around for this program I am starting at my workplace, MINDBODY. And it couldn’t have come at a better time.
After I found out this afternoon, I went for a very long, much needed walk. I realize this is a wake up call for me. Even with all the exercising I have been trying to be consistent with (but let’s face it Rani, not as consistent as I should be) and with all the changing eating habits (which tends to falter when I return home from work at 3pm, famished cause I didn’t eat properly during the day)….I knew this day may arrive. Especially as I experienced a hard time with clothes as of late and not feeling very attractive or healthy for the past few months. I am awake now and I am scared. I should have been scared along time ago….
I know…I know..its just pre-diabetes..not even 100% sure yet. And yes, it could be worse….but for me, right now…this is worse. This is years of cultural and gene history catching up to me…and if don’t stop it now….I see medications and a world of hurt in the future. The buck needs to stop here.
Many changes have occurred over the past few month….schedules, jobs, income…I’m sure this is part of my mid-life crisis. But I have learned to push through as that is what needs to be done. The job I currently have is now a place I enjoy to go to…and all it took was time. Time and talking it out with family and friends. They are wonderful to me and for that I am ever grateful. When people talk about MINDBODY they always say, “I’ve heard they are a great company to work for!” They are 100% correct! I still will continue to pursue my first passion of massage therapy, but in order to do that, my health takes precedent.
And now I get to participate with 44 other people in a healthy challenge call Evolve Wellness! They are going to work with me for the next three months, giving my body, mind and soul a chance to be vigorous with lifestyle change. I still can’t believe it am part of this and again, I am grateful.
This new journey kicks off officially next week. And my goal is succeed for myself and my team. I’ll use my blog as a platform to record and discover. This is no longer only a challenge…it’s about life and living one that is full, healthy and happy. I am ready for this…I need this.
My mom told me awhile back, that she went to visit a wise man after a pilgrimage in India. She called me and said she talked to him about me. He said for me to do three things. And to keep a certain date in mind. I am doing those and see that date in my future and it’s all coming together. Without getting into the details of those three things, it’s mostly about positive ritual as a form of guidance for myself. And in true “Mom” form…there is a goal date for achievement!
So….I have placed it out here. I have typed the words from my head and heart. I have given voice to my body, mind and soul. It’s time Rani…it’s simply time.